The latest of the 30 Day Letter Challenge letters gave me pause for thought and made me feel very uncomfortable. I wrote a letter to my Dad in 2007, just before Tom was born. In this letter I expressed my grief and rage at his treatment of me and my brothers, and also my fears that I would repeat his mistakes with my own son. It was a brutal, uncomfortable letter, and one that I never sent. My Dad died last year and the entire experience effected me greatly.
When the letter challenge came up to write to a deceased person you wish you could talk to, I immediately thought of my Dad. He is probably the one person who effected my life more than any other, not just with his relationship with me, but also with his absence from me. I am still coming to terms with his death and the impact it had on me last year.
After rereading my republished letter to my Dad, I realise it was the wrong thing to do. It was the wrong thing to publish again. Some things are best left in the past, and some things are best left dead.
I’m sorry if you read this before the edit. If you really wish to read the letter, it was around June time in 2007. You’ll be able to find it, but I want it left in the past.